I have a teeny tiny problem with perfectionism. If I can’t do it perfectly, (I tell myself) I can’t do it. So projects pile up, clutter collects and my life goes from order to disorder in a blink. I have journal entries dating back to 1997 that say the same thing: why can’t I get [...]
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The Secret Ingredient
Posted in Anxiety, Cleaning, Complaints, Contentment, Creativity, Family, Frustration, Half-Assed, homemaking, hope, House Muse, joy, Learning, life, Motivation, perfectionism, Procrastination, Things I can't stop talking about on January 12, 2009 | 13 Comments »
Christmas Recap
Posted in Anger, Cleaning, Complaints, death, Family, Freaking Depression, Frustration, Grief, Hang ups, homemaking, hope, Losing a sibling, Motivation, My sister, Pathetic Scene File, Sad, Sadie, Things I can't stop talking about, Transition on January 3, 2009 | 6 Comments »
Well, I didn’t hate Christmas. It didn’t suck. Surprisingly. Though I did have a few moments where I wanted to hurl myself off of the mountain side because the physical pain would have felt much better than the waves of grief that shoved me hard underwater at random and unexpected times. I found myself muttering [...]
Conflicted
Posted in death, Family, Frustration, Grace, Losing a sibling, My sister, Ponderings, Sad, Things I can't stop talking about on September 8, 2008 | 17 Comments »
I was doing ok today until I went to Tate’s Myspace page. I watched the images of her slideshow go by, and I just sat here and choked out sobs. She looks so happy in the pictures. So fun to be around. So smiley and gorgeous. The conflict for me is that I haven’t seen [...]
I Love You; Go Away!
Posted in Anxiety, Complaints, Family, Freaking out, Frustration, Hang ups, homemaking, Mental health issues, Mother-guilt, Motherhood, OCD, Over-reaction, Sadie, Things I can't stop talking about, Why Sadie will need therapy, Yikes! on July 26, 2008 | 7 Comments »
It’s the usual summer stress: convincing Sadie that she DOES NOT need to be occupied every second of the live-long day. She does NOT need a friend over the minute her first friend of the day leaves. Same issue, different state. What is most frustrating to me is that I have created this world for [...]
Where’s WalMart?
Posted in Anxiety, Arkansas, Complaints, Freaking out, Frustration, Houghton, Moving, NY, Over-reaction, Surreal, This rural life, Yikes! on June 23, 2008 | 18 Comments »
We went to Walmart the other day. Usually this wouldn’t be eventful, or the cause of any emotion except, maybe, exasperation. But this time, I had a teeny panic attack. I knew the magnitude of this move would hit me eventually, but I didn’t expect it to happen at WALMART. First we drove 27 miles [...]
Almost…
Posted in Arkansas, Cleaning, Frustration, homemaking, House Muse, Motivation, NY, Selling the house, Things I can't stop talking about, Yikes! on May 27, 2008 | 8 Comments »
Well, first of all, the Nibblers made an offer on another house. We were next in line if the sellers rejected their offer, but alas, offer accepted. We have now lowered our price and are hoping that will make a difference. We’ll be okay even if we don’t sell before we leave, but life would [...]
Lighting
Posted in coffee, Complaints, Frustration, Hang ups, My opinion, OCD, Over-reaction, Silly, Things I can't stop talking about, Yikes! on May 13, 2008 | 8 Comments »
Here’s my question: WHO puts fluorescent lights in a coffee shop?? What is up? Lamps, people! Lamps or indirect lighting. First of all, there is a glare on my laptop screen. Second of all, have we NOT heard of ambiance? I am aware that I have lighting issues. ESPECIALLY if it has to do with [...]
“Only” Guilt
Posted in Anxiety, Family, Frustration, Hang ups, Mental health issues, Mother-guilt, Motherhood, OCD, Sadie, Things I can't stop talking about, Uncategorized on May 10, 2008 | 10 Comments »
So I was talking to my good friend Charlie today about mommy-guilt. She was saying that it comes with every baby. Well I feel plagued with it right now. I mean, simply PLAGUED! I have to keep telling myself that I do not have to be my child’s sister. You know, the one I haven’t [...]
Rosie and the Crazy Lady
Posted in Anxiety, Frustration, Funny, Mental health issues, Motherhood, OCD, Sad, Sadie, Silly, Uncategorized on February 21, 2008 | 7 Comments »
I have officially morphed into That Insane Mom. Sadie lost her little lovie, Rosie, the other day. It’s her sweet little white bunny that she takes EVERYWHERE with her. I thought maybe we left it at the Dr’s office. So I called the front desk and told the lady that I had an EMERGENCY. I [...]
Saved from the Brink of Insanity…
Posted in Anxiety, Family, Frustration, God, Grace, homemaking, Mental health issues, Motherhood, OCD, Sadie, work on January 23, 2008 | 5 Comments »
So Sadie was sick and out of school all of last week. I tried to go into work once (lugging a suitcase full of entertainment for Sades: dvd player, coloring books, stencils, glittery pens, granola bars, barbies…) and why did I think I could get any work done? Oh, wait. I had forgotten. I still [...]
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