I have a teeny tiny problem with perfectionism. If I can’t do it perfectly, (I tell myself) I can’t do it. So projects pile up, clutter collects and my life goes from order to disorder in a blink. I have journal entries dating back to 1997 that say the same thing: why can’t I get [...]
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The Secret Ingredient
Posted in Anxiety, Cleaning, Complaints, Contentment, Creativity, Family, Frustration, Half-Assed, homemaking, hope, House Muse, joy, Learning, life, Motivation, perfectionism, Procrastination, Things I can't stop talking about on January 12, 2009 | 13 Comments »
Good News
Posted in death, Family, God, Grace, hope, How I still am a Pharisee, joy, Learning, life, Losing a sibling, My sister, The afterlife, Uncategorized, Well-being, Who am I?, Wonder, work, tagged Blown Away, God, Grace, Losing a sibling on October 27, 2008 | 15 Comments »
So I swiped my sister’s journals while I was home this weekend. I was looking for her CDs (that girl had more music than anyone I know…) and while I was rifling through her stuff (I’m getting used to it now–I don’t feel so much like a scavenger or an intruder) I found the journals. [...]
Reprieve
Posted in Calling, Community, Contentment, death, God, Grace, Grief, hope, Houghton, joy, Learning, life, Losing a sibling, Motivation, My sister, NY, Ponderings, Procrastination, Running, Surreal, The outdoors, This rural life, Transition, Well-being, Wonder, tagged God, Grief, joy, Losing a sibling, Peace, Running on October 9, 2008 | 9 Comments »
I started running after my sister died. Well, running is a little ambitious to describe it. Let’s just say someone walking at a very brisk pace could lap me repeatedly. I always thought I hated running, but somehow–right now–it is the only thing that seems to make sense to me. When I’m running, I feel [...]
Moving Ramble
Posted in Amazing friends, Arkansas, Calling, coffee, Community, Contentment, God, Grace, Learning, Moving, NY, Ponderings, Sad, Sadie, Selling the house, Uncategorized, Yikes! on May 6, 2008 | 6 Comments »
So it’s just the oddest thing. The way God changes things. I have this vivid memory of sitting in Dan’s office at Houghton in 1997, digging up anything I could find about Siloam Springs, the town we would be soon moving to. I couldn’t surf the web at home, all we could access there was [...]
You Get What You Get (though you might throw a fit)*
Posted in God, Grace, Learning, Ponderings, Uncategorized, Well-being, Wonder on April 21, 2008 | 13 Comments »
*Title change: I realized after a thoughtful comment from Marcy that my first title wasn’t quite accurate. So I changed it. Formally, it was “You Get What You Get and You Don’t Thow a Fit.” I think this one is more fitting to the post. I went to Houghton, NY last weekend REALLY wishing to [...]
The Theology of Bratz
Posted in Community, God, Grace, Learning, Motherhood, Ponderings, Sadie, Theology, Uncategorized on February 13, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Yesterday I bought Sadie Bratz sneakers. I told myself long ago I would not pay money for any Bratz products. Sadie has known since she was conscious that I didn’t like Bratz dolls. We’ve had many a discussion about why this is: they are too grown up, they wear too much make-up, and they look [...]
Barbies
Posted in Family, Funny, Learning, Motherhood, Ponderings, Sadie, Silly, Who am I? on February 8, 2008 | 8 Comments »
Every morning, the minute Sadie wakes up, she wants to play Barbies. When I was pregnant and pious, I vowed that MY little girl would not be allowed to play Barbies. She wouldn’t wear pink, either. No child of mine would be trapped by old-fashioned oppressive stereotypes. MY child would be liberated from the ‘ideal’ [...]
The Hole
Posted in Calling, Frustration, God, Grace, Learning, Ponderings, Theology, Uncategorized, Well-being, Who am I? on December 1, 2007 | 3 Comments »
I found a quote in Reader’s Digest (one of the many that I filched from the free table at the library…) that I loved so much I ripped it out of the book: “I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it’s not [...]
Wrestling with Graduate School
Posted in Calling, God, Learning, Mother-guilt, Motherhood, Ponderings, Theology, Who am I?, Writing on November 19, 2007 | 1 Comment »
So I’m thinking about graduate school. Thinking about it A LOT. My big worry is that I’ll look back and say ‘yeah, I got that degree, but I missed years of Sadie’s life.’ Because I’m not that good multi-tasking. I can be somewhat (ahem…) all or nothing. Balance is hard for me to come by [...]
Alone but not Lonely
Posted in God, Grace, Learning, Ponderings, Solitude, The outdoors, Well-being, Wonder on November 1, 2007 | 8 Comments »
Today my head was loud and crowded; achy and claustrophobic. I knew I was coming to outer reaches of my Extroversion, so I headed out by myself to the local state park. (I now have a season pass…) I grabbed a Market Fresh Sandwich at Arbys on the way (Turkey, Ranch and Bacon–my FAVORITE), and [...]
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