So I’ve really not been ok. I don’t think I realized how far under the water I was until I started to surface recently. I don’t know how I mistook the murky deep for light or air. All I know is that I didn’t know how bad I was feeling until I started feeling better. [...]
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Surfacing
Posted in death, Freaking Depression, Freaking out, Grief, hope, Houghton, Losing a sibling, Mental health issues, Motivation, Moving, My sister, NY, OCD, The Bleak Midwinter, Therapy, Things I can't stop talking about, Transition on February 23, 2009 | 16 Comments »
I don’t even know.
Posted in Complaints, Freaking Depression, Grief, Losing a sibling, Mental health issues, My Yellow Tambourine, Sad, Well-being on December 10, 2008 | 13 Comments »
Sometimes I just want to throw up the badness. Or, I wish I could find the Depression-Off-Switch. At least I’d like to get some kind of schedule of WHEN I am going to feel horrible. I don’t even know what it is. The grey skies? The holidays without Tate? The tuna melt I had for [...]
Good For What Ails Ya
Posted in Amazing friends, Community, Funny, God, Grace, Mental health issues, Motivation, Running, Well-being on September 16, 2008 | 7 Comments »
I’m feeling a little better today. Although Dan has been telling me for YEARS, and every book on depression mentions EXERCISE, I finally have begun a routine. I have been sporadic for years with exercise, but thanks to some great motivational friends here, I have been reaping some benefits of those wonderful endorphins. I never [...]
I Love You; Go Away!
Posted in Anxiety, Complaints, Family, Freaking out, Frustration, Hang ups, homemaking, Mental health issues, Mother-guilt, Motherhood, OCD, Over-reaction, Sadie, Things I can't stop talking about, Why Sadie will need therapy, Yikes! on July 26, 2008 | 7 Comments »
It’s the usual summer stress: convincing Sadie that she DOES NOT need to be occupied every second of the live-long day. She does NOT need a friend over the minute her first friend of the day leaves. Same issue, different state. What is most frustrating to me is that I have created this world for [...]
“Only” Guilt
Posted in Anxiety, Family, Frustration, Hang ups, Mental health issues, Mother-guilt, Motherhood, OCD, Sadie, Things I can't stop talking about, Uncategorized on May 10, 2008 | 10 Comments »
So I was talking to my good friend Charlie today about mommy-guilt. She was saying that it comes with every baby. Well I feel plagued with it right now. I mean, simply PLAGUED! I have to keep telling myself that I do not have to be my child’s sister. You know, the one I haven’t [...]
Spring Break
Posted in Amazing friends, Anxiety, Community, Creativity, Family, Funny, homemaking, House Muse, Mental health issues, OCD, Silly on March 19, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Since I’m beyond remembering what was significant about the post I lost, I’ll just move on. I haven’t been posting for awhile because 1) I’ve been wheezy sick. If I laugh a little bit, I sound like I’ve been smoking for 100 years (and I don’t smoke, except for that one time in college when [...]
Rosie and the Crazy Lady
Posted in Anxiety, Frustration, Funny, Mental health issues, Motherhood, OCD, Sad, Sadie, Silly, Uncategorized on February 21, 2008 | 7 Comments »
I have officially morphed into That Insane Mom. Sadie lost her little lovie, Rosie, the other day. It’s her sweet little white bunny that she takes EVERYWHERE with her. I thought maybe we left it at the Dr’s office. So I called the front desk and told the lady that I had an EMERGENCY. I [...]
Saved from the Brink of Insanity…
Posted in Anxiety, Family, Frustration, God, Grace, homemaking, Mental health issues, Motherhood, OCD, Sadie, work on January 23, 2008 | 5 Comments »
So Sadie was sick and out of school all of last week. I tried to go into work once (lugging a suitcase full of entertainment for Sades: dvd player, coloring books, stencils, glittery pens, granola bars, barbies…) and why did I think I could get any work done? Oh, wait. I had forgotten. I still [...]
(won’t you take me to) FEVERTOWN
Posted in Anxiety, Family, Frustration, God, Grace, Mental health issues, Motherhood, OCD, Sadie, Uncategorized on January 18, 2008 | 6 Comments »
Every Sunday I plan meals for the week, cut coupons, and make a grocery list. Every Monday morning, I drop Sadie off at school, go to work, leave there around 10:00am, head to our local WalMart Supercenter and purchase said groceries. Sadie used to go with me, and every once in a while, she realizes [...]
Update
Posted in Learning, Mental health issues, Motivation, Sad, Therapy, Well-being on May 7, 2007 | 7 Comments »
I haven’t posted for a while because, frankly, I’ve been too depressed. But hope has come to me in the form of a new therapist who is working with me on changing my negative thoughts. Turns out, thoughts cause feelings, not the other way around. And my feelings have been leading me around for, well, [...]
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