So I’ve really not been ok. I don’t think I realized how far under the water I was until I started to surface recently. I don’t know how I mistook the murky deep for light or air. All I know is that I didn’t know how bad I was feeling until I started feeling better. [...]
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Surfacing
Posted in Freaking Depression, Freaking out, Grief, Houghton, Losing a sibling, Mental health issues, Motivation, Moving, My sister, NY, OCD, The Bleak Midwinter, Therapy, Things I can't stop talking about, Transition, death, hope on February 23, 2009 | 16 Comments »
Roller Coaster
Posted in Amazing friends, Anxiety, Arkansas, Community, Freaking out, God, Grace, Houghton, Insecurity, Moving, NY, Ponderings, Sad, Sadie, This rural life, Transition, Well-being, Wonder, coffee, homemaking on August 7, 2008 | 9 Comments »
Roller Coaster is so cliche, but it fittingly describes my summer. When we first arrived in NY I felt this sense of home–a comfortable familiar even though we we’ve been away from this town for 11 years. I was in wonderland–a cool breezy land of green enchantment. The trees, of course, but also the people. [...]
Ode to the Trees
Posted in Contentment, Houghton, Moving, NY, Ponderings, Providence, Solitude, Surreal, The outdoors, This rural life, Well-being, Wonder on July 14, 2008 | 6 Comments »
The cataclysmic event of moving across the country and settling into new routines, new church, new friends, new temperatures, new LIFE–leaves me with so much to say I don’t know where to start. So I’ll begin with a word:
GRATEFUL.
Grateful for so much. But first for the trees. I forgot about trees. I forgot what it’s [...]
Where’s WalMart?
Posted in Anxiety, Arkansas, Complaints, Freaking out, Frustration, Houghton, Moving, NY, Over-reaction, Surreal, This rural life, Yikes! on June 23, 2008 | 18 Comments »
We went to Walmart the other day. Usually this wouldn’t be eventful, or the cause of any emotion except, maybe, exasperation. But this time, I had a teeny panic attack. I knew the magnitude of this move would hit me eventually, but I didn’t expect it to happen at WALMART.
First we drove 27 miles to [...]
Movin’ In
Posted in Community, Contentment, God, Grace, Houghton, Moving, Providence, The outdoors, Well-being, Wonder on June 17, 2008 | 8 Comments »
A few pictures of our journey so far:
(when we finally found the camera!)
I love our new house. I call it The Treehouse. My favorite thing to do is sit out on the back deck. I am decompressing here. I can’t believe how peaceful, how rested, I feel. Of course it’s maddening to have all of [...]
Whirlwind
Posted in Arkansas, Family, Moving, NY, Sadie, Selling the house, Surreal, Things I can't stop talking about, Yikes! on June 9, 2008 | 12 Comments »
So tired. Can’t speak in complete sentences. Will give highlights:
Thurs. 6/6: Three big burly women packers fly through house. Saw one smurf tattoo. Loud: tape ripping, paper crinkling, markers squeaking. Signed a contract to sell our house. Will close Lord willing on June 30th.
Fri. 6/6: Movers arrive. Father/son/cousin team. Heard angry, loud, scary shouting–dad and [...]
Pray!
Posted in Amazing friends, Cleaning, Community, God, House Muse, Motivation, Moving, NY, Providence, Selling the house, Things I can't stop talking about, Yikes!, homemaking on June 2, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Quick update…
Three families are looking at our house today. At least one of the three is so interested they are going to the bank, and may have an offer for us. We leave in 5.4 days. Talk about the 11th hour.
Thanks, dear ones, for praying. Now I must speed to make the house BEAUTIFUL…
Precarious
Posted in Anxiety, Arkansas, Community, God, Grace, Motivation, Moving, NY, Ponderings, Sad, Selling the house, Things I can't stop talking about, coffee on May 30, 2008 | 7 Comments »
I’d like to say I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve been busy, but that is just not true. I’ve been rather mopey–wandering around the house wondering what I’m supposed to be doing. We had the whirlwind of getting ready to show the house and my adrenaline was running high, and now it’s like [...]
A Nibble?
Posted in Moving, Providence, Selling the house, Things I can't stop talking about, coffee on May 23, 2008 | 7 Comments »
I pulled out my french press and made some good strong iced coffee. Too strong, maybe–it’s a little grainy…
I’m just sitting here thinking: 15 days. 15 days to say good bye, sell our house, change the oil in the car, get stuff of the attic, and oh, did I say ’sell the house?’ Here’s an [...]
Open House, Schmopen House
Posted in Arkansas, Cleaning, Funny, God, House Muse, Motivation, Moving, Procrastination, Providence, Sadie, Selling the house, Things I can't stop talking about, homemaking on May 20, 2008 | 2 Comments »
So we had the Big Open House on Sunday. Here is the number of people who came to see the house: ZERO. Even with the balloons and the ad in the newspaper and the big sign at the end of our street. BUT, all is not lost. I didn’t clean the closet doors with a [...]

