So I’ve really not been ok. I don’t think I realized how far under the water I was until I started to surface recently. I don’t know how I mistook the murky deep for light or air. All I know is that I didn’t know how bad I was feeling until I started feeling better. [...]
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Surfacing
Posted in Freaking Depression, Freaking out, Grief, Houghton, Losing a sibling, Mental health issues, Motivation, Moving, My sister, NY, OCD, The Bleak Midwinter, Therapy, Things I can't stop talking about, Transition, death, hope on February 23, 2009 | 16 Comments »
Verbal Tofu
Posted in Blah, Complaints, Contentment, Houghton, NY, Ponderings, Snow, The Bleak Midwinter, This rural life, We're not in Arkansas anymore..., Where are my words, perfectionism on January 29, 2009 | 3 Comments »
I’ve been feeling lately like I have nothing to say. As someone who Says Things as a hobby, this makes me a little panicky. When I have conversations with people these days, my face feels weird, like I don’t know how to communicate anymore–like I’m verbally frozen, and a little bit twitchy. What’s that all [...]
Now This Is The NY I Remember…
Posted in Contentment, Houghton, NY, Snow, The outdoors, This rural life, We're not in Arkansas anymore..., Wonder, joy, tagged NY, Snow on November 10, 2008 | 5 Comments »
See header picture. I took it off of my balcony this morning. And so it begins.
Time to get out my cross country skis…
Community & Grape Jam
Posted in 7435, Amazing friends, Church, Cleaning, Contentment, God, Grace, Houghton, NY, This rural life, Well-being, Why I should be Amish, Wonder, homemaking, hope, joy, life, work, tagged Community, Friends, Grape Jam on October 19, 2008 | 10 Comments »
I spent Columbus Day making grape jam with my friend Sunshine. She had picked mountains of Concord grapes at a local vineyard, and since I had already been through the jam-making process once before with Industrious Betsy, I was up for another batch (actually 5 batches…). The kids had the day off of school, and [...]
Reprieve
Posted in Calling, Community, Contentment, God, Grace, Grief, Houghton, Learning, Losing a sibling, Motivation, My sister, NY, Ponderings, Procrastination, Running, Surreal, The outdoors, This rural life, Transition, Well-being, Wonder, death, hope, joy, life, tagged God, Grief, joy, Losing a sibling, Peace, Running on October 9, 2008 | 9 Comments »
I started running after my sister died. Well, running is a little ambitious to describe it. Let’s just say someone walking at a very brisk pace could lap me repeatedly. I always thought I hated running, but somehow–right now–it is the only thing that seems to make sense to me. When I’m running, I feel [...]
Roller Coaster
Posted in Amazing friends, Anxiety, Arkansas, Community, Freaking out, God, Grace, Houghton, Insecurity, Moving, NY, Ponderings, Sad, Sadie, This rural life, Transition, Well-being, Wonder, coffee, homemaking on August 7, 2008 | 9 Comments »
Roller Coaster is so cliche, but it fittingly describes my summer. When we first arrived in NY I felt this sense of home–a comfortable familiar even though we we’ve been away from this town for 11 years. I was in wonderland–a cool breezy land of green enchantment. The trees, of course, but also the people. [...]
Ode to the Trees
Posted in Contentment, Houghton, Moving, NY, Ponderings, Providence, Solitude, Surreal, The outdoors, This rural life, Well-being, Wonder on July 14, 2008 | 6 Comments »
The cataclysmic event of moving across the country and settling into new routines, new church, new friends, new temperatures, new LIFE–leaves me with so much to say I don’t know where to start. So I’ll begin with a word:
GRATEFUL.
Grateful for so much. But first for the trees. I forgot about trees. I forgot what it’s [...]
Where’s WalMart?
Posted in Anxiety, Arkansas, Complaints, Freaking out, Frustration, Houghton, Moving, NY, Over-reaction, Surreal, This rural life, Yikes! on June 23, 2008 | 18 Comments »
We went to Walmart the other day. Usually this wouldn’t be eventful, or the cause of any emotion except, maybe, exasperation. But this time, I had a teeny panic attack. I knew the magnitude of this move would hit me eventually, but I didn’t expect it to happen at WALMART.
First we drove 27 miles to [...]
Whirlwind
Posted in Arkansas, Family, Moving, NY, Sadie, Selling the house, Surreal, Things I can't stop talking about, Yikes! on June 9, 2008 | 12 Comments »
So tired. Can’t speak in complete sentences. Will give highlights:
Thurs. 6/6: Three big burly women packers fly through house. Saw one smurf tattoo. Loud: tape ripping, paper crinkling, markers squeaking. Signed a contract to sell our house. Will close Lord willing on June 30th.
Fri. 6/6: Movers arrive. Father/son/cousin team. Heard angry, loud, scary shouting–dad and [...]
Pray!
Posted in Amazing friends, Cleaning, Community, God, House Muse, Motivation, Moving, NY, Providence, Selling the house, Things I can't stop talking about, Yikes!, homemaking on June 2, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Quick update…
Three families are looking at our house today. At least one of the three is so interested they are going to the bank, and may have an offer for us. We leave in 5.4 days. Talk about the 11th hour.
Thanks, dear ones, for praying. Now I must speed to make the house BEAUTIFUL…
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